Changes...................

Here we go again.  Changes are not necessarily bad but sometimes I would like to have things stay the same for awhile.  Jessie and Charlie have moved out.  She moved the middle of last week and Charlie left yesterday.  I am trying to focus on what to do next and get started but a part of me wants to just sit.  Roger and Rooster will be arriving on Thursday so that motivates me somewhat.  Don't get me wrong, I know that Jessie wanted to be on her own and I am ok with that.  She has moved into a really nice house here with 2 friends.  There is another dog named Homer for Charlie to play with.  I am just a bit lonely this morning.  Even though I didn't see too much of Jessie I miss knowing she is here.  I have gotten used to Charlie wanting me to take him out and play with the tennis balls every morning.  I am sure that they will visit from time to time so that will be good.  Since Jessie needed her things out of the warehouse and garage we were able to remove the rest of mom's belongings from the warehouse.  It was kind of like closing another chapter.  I am keeping her dining room set in my garage.  I just can't part with it yet.  I keep thinking that some day I will live in a house in the mountains and the set will be perfect there.  Who knows??????  Thursday will be the anniversary of mom's death.  I can't believe it has already been a year.  I miss her terribly.  Sometimes I just want to beat the walls and scream but I don't.  I will get through it.  I have many things to keep me happy.  

I had a message on the answering machine last night  from the oldest foster child that Chris and Aimee have.  I hate to call her that but I can't use her name.   She said, "Hi Grammy, I miss you."   AWWWWW my heart just melted.  I really miss her and her little sister too.  They are so sweet and truly touched my heart.  I will never forget them.  I hope that I will be able to see them again.  

Speaking of seeing them again.  I want to see Olivia and Sarah so badly, it is just about making me crazy.  I don't even know how to put into words the feeling I have about that.  When I see pictures of them there is just an aching inside of me:(  Boo hoo.  Well, I should stop acting like a cry baby and be happy that all is going well and they are doing fine.)  Yesterday though, I was able to show my pictures to some people that I haven't seen since I got home.  I just love whipping that little book out of my purse, the ultimate "grandmother" move, ha!  

Tomorrow is Pat's birthday, yes St. Patrick's Day.  I am really excited about his birthday.  Chris has instigated a wonderful surprise for him and I can't wait to see his reaction.  I'll post about it after the fact.  

Don't even know if anyone reads this but I have to say it feels good just to blog and get things out of my system.  Thanks Chris for setting this up for me.